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The Man Who Melted
Jack Dann
One
Raymond Mantle took a flyer to Naples, the
fallen city. It looked as grim as he felt. Nemesius, one of Mantle’s
many sources, said that a woman fitting Josiane’s description had
been located here. He couldn’t be sure, of course, because his
informatore had mysteriously disappeared. After all, Naples had
become a dangerous place since it had fallen to the Screamers.
But Mantle had to find his wife, Josiane.
Nothing else was important.
He had lost her during the Great Scream, when
the screaming mobs tore New York City apart, leaving thousands dead
and countless others roving about like the mind-deadened victims of
a concentration camp. With the exception of a few childhood
memories, he couldn’t remember her after the Great Scream. It was as
if she had been ripped from his memory. Mantle’s amnesia was not
total; he could summon up certain incidents and remember every
detail and everyone involved except Josiane. She inhabited his
memory like a shadow, an emptiness, and he was obsessed with finding
her, with remembering. She held the key to his past. She was the
element that had burned out, plunging his past into darkness.
Nemesius’ man, Melzi, met Mantle in the crowded
Piazza Trento e Trieste, and they walked north on the Via Roma,
past a gang of sciuscias—half-naked street arabs with implanted male
and female genitalia on their arms and chests. It was not yet dark,
but the huge kliegs were on, illuminating the alleyways in harsh
whites and yellows—as if bright light could prevent a Screamer
attack. Police vans passed back and forth through the noisy crowds
of elemosina, those on the dole. They lived in the streets and on
the beltways, in gangs and clans and families. During the rush
hours, this street would look like a battle zone. But even here,
even now, old, familiar scenes caught Mantle’s eyes: the shoeblacks
and hurdy-gurdies and glowworms; the refreshment kiosks where a
narcodrine could be sniffed for a few lire; the holographically
projected faces of the holy saints which hung in the damp air like
paper masks; and the ever-present venditores who sold talking Bibles
and varied selections of religious memorabilia blessed by the Pope
and sanctioned by the Vatican Collective which ruled the country.
There were still strings of lemons hanging in shop windows; and
lemon ices were being sold, as were jettatura charms, the coral
horns and little bones everyone used to wear to ward off the evil
eye. Now they were worn as protections from Screamers.
Here beat the heart of Naples, along the
narrow, broken streets and crowded piazzas. Not far from here,
though, small bands of Screamers still roamed, the last remnants of
the mobs that had almost destroyed the city.
“We’re going into the Old Spacca Quarter,”
Melzi said. He was a small man with thinning gray hair and a very
clean-shaven face; he looked more like a clerk than a bodyguard.
Most of the other men and women Mantle had to contact in the past
were more obviously sleazy; they had the psychic smell of the
streets all over them. “The woman who may be your wife is near Gesu
Nuovo, off the Via Capitelli. Not a safe neighborhood. But we should
not have any trouble finding the building. It is the only one that
is not burned on the outside.”
“Another one of Nemesius’ whorehouses?” Mantle
asked.
“We might as well walk,” Melzi said, ignoring
Mantle’s sarcasm. “The beltways are not in good condition
hereabouts, and we won’t find a cab that will take us into Spacca.”
Although they were still in a relatively safe
area, Mantle was nervous. His whole being was focused on the remote
possibility of finding Josiane; everything else was white noise. He
was as haunted as the street arabs around him.
“You can still turn around and go home,” Melzi
said. “If the woman is a phony, I will know it.” Mantle did not
respond, and Melzi shrugged.
After they had worked their way through the
crowds for several more blocks, Mantle asked, “How much farther?”
“You’ll see, we are almost there,” Melzi said.
He carried his heat weapon openly now. Mantle kept his hands in his
pockets; he always carried a pistol when he had to be on the
streets.
The Via Roma, along which they were still
walking, became less crowded. When they crossed over into Spacca,
they found the alleyways and narrow buildings almost empty.
Everything was dirty; ahead were the burned buildings scourged by
Screamers.
A small, dangerous-looking crowd gathered
behind Mantle and Melzi. Mantle took his pistol out of his pocket.
“Not to worry yet,” Melzi said. “They’re not
Screamers. As long as they are behind us, we are relatively safe.
They’re nothing but avvoltoio.” He spat the word.
“What?”
“Stinking birds. Scavengers.”
“Vultures,” Mantle said.
“Yes, that’s it,” Melzi said. “Now, if we
engage a crowd up ahead, then we might be in trouble. But we are
armed, and I would burn the lot of them. It would not be worth it
for them to attack us. Some of them know me; they would not get
anything of worth. You see”—Melzi extended his free arm and
fluttered his fingers—“not even a ring. I have beautiful rings, that
is my weakness. Especially diamonds, which are my birthstone. I wear
one upon every finger, even the thumb.” He made a vulgar gesture. “I
might feel naked, but I’m not worried yet. Would you like to see
them? My rings?”
“Yes, perhaps,” Mantle said, annoyed. The crowd
following Mantle and Melzi was unnaturally quiet; it unnerved
Mantle.
“Maybe later,” Melzi said. “If we do not have
the luck to find your little bird.”
Mantle fantasized smashing the little man’s
face. God, how he hated them all. All the filth from the streets.
But if he could find Josiane tonight, it would be worth all the
Melzis in the world.
“If the trash behind us were Screamers, then I
would be worried,” Melzi said. “You never know with them. They walk
about in their little groups, looking just like the filth behind us.
Then all of a sudden they decide to scour the street and you’re
dead. They’re like junkies; you can burn them, fill them up with
bullets, but nothing seems to stop them. And you can’t even find
them again, they just disappear. They’re like centipedes, all those
legs and one head.” Melzi laughed at that, as if it were an original
thought. Again he laughed, almost a titter. “I can smell them, you
know. They smell different from elemosina or avvoltoio. Not like
trash, just sick. You smell all right, of course. But there’s a
whiff, I don’t know—”
“Shut up,” Mantle snapped.
“Oh, I am sorry if I have hurt your feelings.
Certainly, I did not mean any disrespect. Will you forgive me?”
They turned onto the Via Croce. A group of
prostitutes, all hideously fat, sat on the steps of a palazzo and
shouted, “Succhio, succhio,” as Mantle and Melzi passed. Melzi
shouted obscenities back; he was more animated, nervous. There was
much slave-marketeering hereabouts. Whores and old people, and
especially children, were kidnapped and sold to those who would pay
to hook-into their brains and taste their experiences, their lives.
The black market catered to the rich. The dole was virtually
nonexistent here; survival was the business of the day. Police and
the other arms of government would not be found in these parts. This
was free country.
“Now we must be a little careful, because this
neighborhood is not so good,” Melzi said. He made the gesture of
being shackled by crossing his wrists. “Many slavers hereabouts;
they look just like anybody. We would fetch a good price,” he said
preening himself. “I can imagine that you would be delicious to
hook-into.”
Someone shouted; there was another scream.
There was a fight ahead in the square of Gesu Nuovo. Men and women
and children were brawling, it seemed, over small metal canisters of
some sort—perhaps food or drugs. Mantle glanced behind him; only a
few avvoltoio were following, but still they made him nervous.
“We have a stroke of luck,” Melzi said. “The
fight will draw the avvoltoio and we can attend to our business.”
“How close are we?” Mantle asked, excited.
“We are there, you see, that’s it.” He pointed
to a palazzo which actually looked whitewashed, a miracle in these
parts.
“Jesus.”
“It is quite famous,” Melzi said. “Like the
Crazy Horse near where you live.”
“I don’t think you can compare—”
“What’s the difference, except for the
neighborhood? This palazzo is an attraction because of the
neighborhood. Here you can find interesting pleasures; polizia do
not make problems here.” Melzi looked at the women fighting in the
square and made a clucking noise of disapproval as he watched a
young woman being disemboweled in the quaint broken fountain. Mantle
hesitated, but Melzi took him by the arm; the little man was
deceptively strong. “We are here to find your little bird, that’s
all.”
As they neared the palazzo, the streets became
crowded once again. It was like stepping into another, albeit
dangerous, country, into an international oasis amid the lowlife of
the street. Mantle could see well-dressed, and well-guarded, men and
women stepping quickly among the street arabs, hawkers, pimps, and
other assorted street people. One dignitary was actually enclosed
in a glassite litter that was shouldered by four uniformed men.
A woman approached Melzi, and he burned a hole
in her throat. Mantle lunged for Melzi’s weapon, but Melzi deftly
pulled it out of reach and continued to walk. Elemosina stepped over
the dying woman as if she were a rock in the road.
“Scum,” Mantle said, drawing away from Melzi.
His flesh was crawling. “Murderer!”
“Now calm yourself,” Melzi said, as if he were
a bank clerk explaining why he couldn’t accept a customer’s credit.
“That was just a precaution. She had evil thoughts in mind.”
“Could you smell those, too?”
“You are not in Cannes, Signore,” Melzi said.
“And do not think you are safe here or now. Without me, it is
doubtful whether you would ever get out of here alive, much less
find your wife. Now do you forgive me? When last I asked, you
ignored me.” Melzi was playing him, and Mantle knew it. But he was
so close. All that really mattered was Josiane. “Well . . . ?” Melzi
asked.
“I forgive you,” Mantle said, as if he were
spitting up raw meat. Nemesius will pay for this, he thought.
“Thank you,” Melzi said, not pressing it
further.
Mantle followed Melzi, who walked past the
white palazzo. The building was high and imposing; it was formed in
the style of a Florentine palace, complete with rich embossing,
curved frontons, projecting cornices, and ringed columns, most of
which were broken or cracked.
“Where are you going?” Mantle asked, noticing
that it was growing dark. They walked along a cobblestone close,
which Mantle was afraid might also be a dead end. Could Melzi and
Nemesius have set him up? Mantle felt a touch of panic. No, he told
himself. He had dealt with Nemesius for too long.
“This is the best way to get in,” Melzi said,
“although I must admit, this alleyway does look dangerous.” He
pounded on a heavy, inlaid door. The door opened, but not before
Mantle glimpsed that the shadows under the broken klieg at the end
of the alley were moving.
“Meet Vittorio,” Melzi said to Mantle as they
entered a large pantry filled with canisters of foodstuffs and, from
the look of it, rats. Vittorio was swarthy and as short as Melzi. He
had almost transparent green eyes; waxed, curly hair; a kinky,
short-cropped beard; and he wore a stained serge suit. He was
missing a front tooth. Yet he bore himself as if he were presiding
over a parliament of rich and respected nubiluomo.
“Buona sera.” Then Melzi slipped him a package
and Vittorio nodded to Mantle, mumbled, “Mi scusi,” and walked off,
presumably to hold court with the rats and kitchen cats.
“Well, come on,” Melzi said. “He’s going ahead
to prepare her.”
“Who is he?” Mantle asked.
“He’s the proprietor, a very famous man. Don’t
be fooled by his teeth, he has many affectations. He owns this place
and many more. And as you can see, he watches over his interests.
That’s the secret of success, is it not?”
Mantle followed Melzi out of the room and into
a long, well-lit corridor. There was almost a hospital smell
hereabouts, and Mantle shuddered, thinking of what might be going
on behind closed doors. Josiane must be here, he told himself. He
had to find her this time.
“We’re taking a shortcut,” Melzi said. “We’re
safer here than in the main rooms, which are, of course, much more
interesting. But then that’s the allure of a place such as this, is
it not? I’m willing to bet you’d run into a pal in one of those
rooms. You’d be surprised who risks the streets for a night at
Vittorio’s.”
They took an elevator to the top story. Mantle
was afraid of elevators; they symbolized his life, which he could
not control. They were driven, it seemed, by unseen forces. Once
inside the box, you had to trust the machine. And the machine didn’t
care if it worked or not.
“You make it very hard for Nemesius, you know,”
Melzi said. “He has nothing but a few hollies of your little bird.”
“The records were burned.”
“Yes, how lucky for you Americans. Most of you
got a second chance. Wiped the slates clean, so to speak. What I
wouldn’t give for such an accident.”
“Come on, Melzi.”
“One last thing, Signore,” Melzi said. “You
must remember that Vittorio is just a middleman, just like Nemesius.
Just like me. It seems we’ve all become middlemen in these times.”
Melzi smiled at that, obviously satisfied with his philosophizing.
“And you must also remember that there are no guarantees.”
“I’ll know if it’s her,” Mantle said.
They stopped at the end of the hallway and
Melzi rapped twice on a metal door, which Vittorio opened. “She’s
right in here.”
The room was a cell. It smelled of urine,
contained an open toilet, a wall sink, a discolored bidet, a filthy
mattress on the metal floor, a computer console and a psyconductor
with its cowls and mesh of wires, and a wooden folding chair. On the
pallet lay Josiane, or a woman who looked exactly like her. She was
naked and perspiring heavily. Mantle almost cried, for her face and
small breasts were black and blue. Her hair was blonde and curly,
although it was matted with dirt and clotted blood. She looked up at
him, her limpid eyes as blue as his own; but she was looking through
him, through the walls and the world, and back into the dark places
of her mind.
“Well,” Melzi said, sharing a glance with
Vittorio, “that certainly looks like your little bird.”
“Here are her papers,” Vittorio said to Mantle
in an American accent, which was the current fashion; and then he
passed Mantle a large envelope. But Mantle just held it; he was
lost. His memory was jarred, and he slipped back to the first time,
in the old house in Cayuga, when there were still spruce and fir
covering the mountain. But he didn’t care about trees then. He was
fourteen and Josiane was eleven—but developed for her age—and she
came into his room and they lay on the bed and talked and she jerked
him off as she had done since she was eight or nine, and he rolled
over on top of her, stared steadily into her face and entered her.
Then stopped, as if tasting some kind of delicious, warm ice cream,
and they just stared at each other, moving up and down, breath only
slightly quickened. It was more a way of talking.
Another memory came back to him: the face of a
young woman in a crowd. The same face as the woman on the mattress.
“Signore, come back to the world,” Vittorio
said, and Melzi chuckled.
Mantle shook his head as if he had slipped from
one world to another and mumbled, “Josiane.” Then he rushed to the
psyconductor, grabbed two cowls from the top of the console, and
lunged toward her, intent on hooking into her thoughts; but Melzi
caught him and pulled him away. “Are you that determined to burn
your brain?” Melzi asked. “At least let me look at her first.”
“We have many customers who wish to hook-into
Screamers,” Vittorio said. “But they must pay first. It’s a policy
of the house.”
Melzi squatted beside the woman and examined
her with an instrument that projected a superimposed holographic
image of Josiane over her face. After several minutes, he raised the
magnification and disappeared the holographic image.
“Whoever did this work was a real artist,”
Melzi said. “Her face corresponds exactly to the hollie. But you
see, right there?” He indicated a dry area just below her earlobe.
“You see, the pores are open everywhere else but in that tiny spot.”
He raised the magnification several more powers. “There you can see
the faint thread of a suture. A recent job. He should have been just
a little more careful and covered that up.”
Mantle pushed Melzi out of the way and examined
her himself. He felt anger and frustration burning through him,
returning more violently than ever before. He began to shake. Once
again he had tried to fool himself, this time with a burned-up
Screamer, a grido, a crieuse—but she was not his wife!
“I don’t think you would wish to hook-into that
woman,” Melzi said. “She is not—”
“But you must admit, Signore,” Vittorio said,
“she looks exactly like the hollies with which we were provided.”
Then Vittorio said to Melzi, “She was supposed to have been
completely checked out by the man who brought her to me.”
Melzi only shrugged.
“My contact is a reputable man; he will be very
unhappy—”
Then Mantle snapped completely—it was as if
someone, or something, had suddenly taken him over. He punched
Vittorio in the abdomen before Melzi could stop him. At once, the
door to the hallway slammed open and one of Vittorio’s men entered.
The man was big and had the dead look of the street about him. As
Mantle turned, the man struck him hard in the chest and pushed him
savagely against the wall. Mantle overcame his nausea and tried to
free himself, but Vittorio’s man was too strong.
Melzi watched, his mouth pursed as if he were
amused. “You must forgive my client,” he said to Vittorio. “He’s not
right in the head. He—”
“Now he will buy the girl,” Vittorio said,
still gasping for breath. He kept smoothing down his suit.
“Don’t even argue,” Melzi said to Mantle. Melzi
nodded to Vittorio; and Vittorio, in his turn, told his man to
release Mantle. Mantle made the credit transaction by applying his
hand to the glass face of the computer console.
He had bought the woman.
“You realize that this is simply a transfer of
funds from one account to another,” Vittorio said, having recovered
himself. “It cannot possibly be traced.”
A matronly domestic entered the room with
clothes for the woman and various messages for Vittorio.
“Get her dressed and let’s get out of here,”
Mantle said impatiently.
“I named her Victoria. She’ll answer to that if
she’ll answer at all,” Vittorio said. He nodded curtly to Melzi and
left the room. His man followed.
Mantle felt his flesh crawl. He was sure that
Vittorio had abused her. “Let’s get out of here. Now!”
“Let the girl finish dressing,” Melzi said. “I
am in no rush to be on the streets. Just a few minutes ago you were
going to hook-into her and now—”
“Now,” Mantle repeated. And he held out his
hand to Victoria, who grinned at him, just as Josiane used to do.
* * *
The streets were empty—not a shadow moving, not
a sound. It was dark, but the crooked, and usually deadly,
intersecting streets were well lit, for anyone caught trying to
break one of the kliegs would be torn limb from limb. The common
folk had their own notions of law. However, enough lamps were broken
to create a patchwork effect of white, black, and gray.
They were almost out of Spacca. Victoria seemed
suddenly alert, her head cocked, as if listening to someone who was
talking too low.
“I don’t like this,” Mantle said. His chest was
aching, but he ignored it.
“It is very bad,” Melzi agreed. “It’s going to
be a big one this time. I didn’t expect anything like this to happen
again so soon. I didn’t think there were enough Screamers to do it.
But you never know. All we can do is hurry. There’s nothing to stop
us, at least.”
Mantle repressed an urge to slow down. He was
curious, not really afraid. That, he knew, was dangerous. If Mantle
was caught in a crowd of Screamers, he might not be able to resist
becoming like them—very few could.
“The girl is slowing us down,” Melzi said,
grasping her arm and dragging her forward. “We don’t have much time.
The farther we are from Spacca, the safer.”
“I don’t see anything yet,” Mantle said.
“Jesù, can’t you feel it? Come on, hurry.”
Mantle took her other arm. “Don’t hurt her,
Melzi,” Mantle said. “You’re hurting her, let go of her arm.”
“She may look like your wife, Signore, but
she’s still a grido. She feels nothing. She’s not in this world. I
can smell that.”
Victoria suddenly started dragging her feet.
She shook her head back and forth, her eyes closed, face placid, as
if listening to music.
“We can’t drag her like this,” Melzi said.
“Come on, little bird, wake up.” He slapped her back and forth on
the face.
“Leave her alone!” Mantle said, bracing her
arms as she fell to her knees. Her head was cocked, and she began to
smile.
“I’m leaving, and so are you,” Melzi said. “I
contracted to bring you home, and so I shall.” He pointed his heat
weapon at Mantle. “Please forgive me, Signore, but if you do not
come along, I will have to kill her. The smell of grido is so strong
all around us that I can hardly breathe. We’ve no time to waste. Now
leave her be.”
Mantle felt something in the air, electricity,
as if a powerful storm were about to break, only its potential
energy seemed sentient. Suddenly Victoria began to scream. Long,
cold streamers of sound. Melzi—who was sweating profusely and
looking around in nervous, darting movements as if he were about to
be attacked from every side—shot Victoria in the throat, just as he
had shot the other woman. Mantle shouted, but it was too late. He
was overcome with hatred and disgust and sorrow. For that instant,
it was Josiane whom Melzi had shot.
In return, Mantle shot Melzi, twice in the
chest and once in the groin. It was as if Mantle’s hand had a will
of its own.
“But she will attract the others,” Melzi
whispered, referring to the Screamers. He looked nothing but
surprised for a second, and then collapsed.
Mantle heard a distant roaring like faraway
breakers. For an instant he was a child again, listening to the
ocean calling his name. Then he saw the first Screamers running
toward him, heads thrown back as they howled at the heavens like
wolves. Thousands of them crowded the streets and alleyways,
turning Spacca into commotion. Melzi had been right. The mob would
converge upon them. It was a many-headed beast screaming for blood
and Mantle, as if in response to Victoria’s call.
Mantle had enough time to turn and run, but
when he tried, Victoria rose before him like a ghost. She called to
him, promised that she was Josiane. Her skin was translucent, her
rags diaphanous, and her voice was that of the Screamers.
He heard Josiane’s voice calling him, then a
thousand voices, all Josiane’s. . . .
The Screamers were all around him, pushing him,
pressing against him, tempting him, a thousand sirens promising
darkness and cold love. Mantle looked around, shaking his head in
one direction, then another; and saw that everyone looked like
Josiane. Then everyone turned into Mantle’s dead mother, and an
instant later, the features of every Screamer’s face melted like hot
wax. The mob took on the angry face of Mantle’s dead father, then
his dead brother. Every Screamer was changing, melting into someone
Mantle had known or loved or hated.
“Stop it!” Mantle screamed as everyone turned
into Carl Pfeiffer, an old friend and enemy. But Mantle was caught,
another Screamer. He was running with them—south, past the Via Diaz,
through the ruins of burned-out buildings and garbage-strewn
streets, over the seamless macadam that covered the cobblestone
roads once used by Romans. He screamed, lost in the mob. He could
hear the thoughts of every other Screamer. Their cries and screams
were the rhythms of fire and transcendence and death. He felt
silvery music as the dark voices rustled his childhood memories like
wheat in a field. He felt transformed, transported into the hot eye
of a hurricane.
But a part of Mantle’s mind resisted the dark,
telepathic nets of the screaming mob, even now. Like a man pulling
himself out of deepest sleep, he wrenched himself away. But he was
only swallowed again, submerged in the undertow of minds.
Suddenly, he felt a blunt pain in his arm and
shoulder—a Screamer running beside Mantle tripped and pushed him
against the ragged stone side of the building. Although he couldn’t
stop himself from running or screaming with the others, he
concentrated on the pain. He used it to close himself from the
Circaen voices long enough to slow his gait until the mob was ahead
of him. Then he fell to the macadam, exhausted and dazed.
Later, he would remember everything but the
Screamer attack.
Two
The boardwalk creaked as Mantle walked, and the
strong noontime sunlight turned the bistros, boardwalk feelies, and
open-air restaurants white as bones in a desert. Once again he tried
to remember what had happened to him last week in Naples, but his
mind’s eye was closed. Memory was lost in darkness.
He shivered as if he had remembered something
painful, which quickly slipped away from him. He knew that he had
been attacked by Screamers in Naples; he just couldn’t remember. He
remembered finding Victoria and shooting Melzi—he winced, just
thinking about that—and then waking up in a hospital hallway that
was lined with cots. He had suffered a mild concussion, and his arms
and chest were black and blue. He had left the hospital as soon as
he could to recuperate in the privacy of his hotel room.
Now that he was back in Cannes, he felt like
himself again. Whatever had happened in Naples was like a dream. But
he walked quickly, impatiently, as if he could walk his way through
his amnesia: he was expecting an important phone call from Francois
Pretre, a minister of the Church of the Christian Criers.
To his right was the ancient Boulevard de la
Croisette, elegant but deteriorated, its rare gardens untended and
its cement promenade cracked and broken. But still, it was the
meeting place of the gentry, especially in the winter when
expatriates, spies, political exiles, and reporters from all over
Europe and the Americas would gather. Since Naples had first fallen
to the Screamer mobs, the Boulevard de la Croisette had become what
the Via Roma had once been: an informal center for intrigue and
exchange of information.
The boardwalk ended, and Mantle crossed over to
the boulevard. The computer plug whispered it was time for his pill.
He felt a surge of anger and took the plug from his ear. He didn’t
need drugs to calm himself. He counted trees and inhaled the salty,
decaying odors of the Mediterranean. Torn pieces of newsfax capered
toward him in the wind like pigeons chasing bread. He passed an old
woman cleaning the street in front of a dingy bistro called “Club
California.” She gave him a nasty look and stirred dust devils into
the air.
He nodded to her and walked toward the old La
Castre Museum. He would be home soon. The sea was behind him; the
streets noisy with vendors and children and congregating neighbors.
He passed his friend Joan’s apartment and felt the old pangs of
guilt. But he didn’t stop. He would make amends later. She would
understand. She always had.
He could feel a sort of electricity around him,
as if a storm were brewing. Yet, there was not a cloud in the sky.
But today would be a good day. It would bring him closer to Josiane.
Perhaps Pretre would finally call to grant him permission to
hook-into a dead Screamer.
Perhaps Mantle could find Josiane inside a dead
man’s mind.
Carl Pfeiffer stood outside Mantle’s house in
Old Town.
Mantle lived in a faded, dirty-looking yellow
house with common walls and noisy neighbors—just under the clock
tower, the grand machine that ruled ancient Cannes. Before the
close-packed, tile-roofed, chimneyed houses were the square and the
Church of Good Hope; then more houses and shops, less deteriorated
and with a better view of the harbor and the misted island of
Ste-Marguerite.
Before Mantle could change direction, Pfeiffer
saw him and was shouting and waving his hands.
What the hell is he doing here? Mantle asked
himself, already feeling trapped. Too late now to turn back on the
Rue Perrissol, to try to find Joan and kill time until Pfeffer grew
tired and left. He wouldn’t even have to miss Pretre; Mantle would
have an excuse to call him.
“I’ve been waiting here for an hour,” Pfeiffer
said, taking a backward step as if Mantle had given him a push.
Indeed, the thought had crossed his mind. “I left a message on your
telie yesterday,” Pfeiffer continued. “Haven’t you been home? Don’t
you check the Net for messages?” He gave Mantle a condescending
look.
The Reverend Pretre refused to leave any
messages on the Net, so Mantle had not bothered to check it.
“You could at least pretend to be happy to see
me,” Pfeiffer said. “It’s been a long time.”
“This is a surprise, Carl,” Mantle said,
worrying his keys out of his pocket. His voice was still hoarse.
“Yes, it has been a long time.”
“You’re still angry about the past, aren’t
you?” Pfeiffer asked—more a statement than a question. “After all
these years, let things die.”
“I can’t remember the past, remember?” But
Pfeiffer could, and Mantle hated him for that.
“Whatever you may think, I was always your
friend.”
“Let’s not go into that.” Their friendship had
been ruinous, built upon the premise that Pfeiffer would succeed and
Mantle would fail. Pfeiffer had always done his part. Now that
Mantle’s life had caved in, he was making an entrance.
“This is just a visit, not work-related at
all,” Pfeiffer said as if Mantle had asked a question. Again that
condescending look, but that was Pfeiffer’s way. He was a stout man
with a boyish face and a shock of blond and silvery-gray hair.
Pfeiffer looked like the successful reporter: expensive clothes that
seemed slightly worn, sureness of manner, steady stare—an apple-pie,
good-old-hometown boy, definitely a media man, not a shut-in newsfax
technician like Mantle, but an actor, a holographic image seen every
night in the millions of American living rooms. Pfeiffer was the
good doctor who could make the daily dose of bad news palatable to
his patients. Mantle, on the other hand, looked too menacing to
deliver news. He had a tight, hard face, high cheekbones, deeply set
pale blue eyes, and a strong, cleft chin. He looked younger than his
forty years.
Mantle was surprised that Carl had not yet
recited his latest accomplishments and good fortune.
“I must say that things have been going quite
well for me,” Pfeiffer said as if on cue. “Have you seen any of my
shows?” He picked up a thin brown suitcase behind him.
“Did you camouflage your bag?” Mantle asked,
but Pfeiffer only chuckled.
As he followed Mantle up a flight of stairs, he
told him of his recent books—he was a readable, if somewhat pedantic
essayist, and sold everything he wrote to the popular fax magazines.
It was depressing to think of Pfeiffer’s gems of wisdom oozing out
of every living-room computer terminal in America. His collected
essays were bound in hardcover, an honor indeed; and the best thing
of all was that he had also been doing fiction again (his fiction
was terrible); and of course, he was selling it under a pseudonym;
and, yes, he had sold a novel, finally, and it would be in covers
first and then go to fax for a huge amount of money; and he was
taking a leave of absence to complete the book.
Are you still jealous? Mantle asked himself, or
was that burned out too? But that was unimportant now. Only one
thing was important: Pretre must call today.
The hallway was dark, windowless except for the
top landing, which had a yellow and red and orange stained-glass
window, and, in marked contrast to the rest of the hall, was also
clean. Mme. Acte and her flabby-fat daughter swept daily, but
neither bothered to use a dustpan, and Mantle did not care enough to
clean up the mess they left on his landing. They were his only
tenants.
As Mantle opened the door to his flat, he
excused himself and rushed into the living room to make a quick
check of the computer for coded messages. There were none.
“It’s all right, come in,” he said to Pfeiffer,
who was waiting at the door.
“You did get my messages, didn’t you,” Pfeiffer
said. It wasn’t a question.
Ignoring that, Mantle said, “I’m afraid
everything’s a bit of a mess.” Mme. Acte and her daughter used to
clean house for him in lieu of rent, but he couldn’t stand them
fumbling about in his rooms, arguing, and fingering through his
personal effects. They suffered the indignity of free housing by
sweeping their dirt onto his landing.
Pfeiffer set his bag down in the middle of the
living room (and surely he intended to stay as long as he could),
then sniffed around like a tawny, compact animal. The room had large
high windows that caught the morning light. Situated before the
windows, upon a brightly colored drop cloth, were two easels and a
ruined satinwood desk littered with broken paint cylinders and
brushes. Piled upon and around a paint-smeared video console and
the ever-present computer terminal were piles of books in covers,
fax and fische, and disordered stacks of gessoed canvas boards.
The plaster-chipped walls were covered with
Mantle’s own paintings and graphics, with the exception of a few
etchings and woodcuts by Fiske Boyd, a little-known
twentieth-century artist. Most of the paintings were land- and
sea-scapes; Mantle especially loved the perched villages, such as
Eze and Mons. As he frequently traveled the old Esterel Road, many
of the paintings depicted the red porphyry of the Esterel Massif and
the Calanques, the deep, rugged inlets. Upon first look, some of his
paintings appeared to be vague, almost smoky-looking, but shapes
seemed to form as one stared into the milky canvases enclosed in
heavy frames; they gained definition and color, as if the viewer
were somehow superimposing his own imagination upon them. Then, for
an instant, the paintings would appear to be as clear and defined as
old photographs.
Mantle watched Pfeiffer inspect the room.
Short, squat, freckled Pfeiffer with his baby face and widely set
eyes and high cheekbones. How long have we known each other? It must
be twenty years. All that hate and love wasted like a bad marriage.
Now there was the old silence between them and all the walls of the
past. Although he wanted to push through the barriers and reach
Pfeiffer, kindle the warmth of the old days (and extract Pfeiffer’s
memories of Josiane like teeth), he felt repelled by this familiar
stranger. Stymied, Mantle kept quiet, watched, and waited.
“This one is very good,” Pfeiffer said, staring
at a large fantastical painting of a dead bird in the woods. It was
centered on the far narrow wall of the living room. The painting
commanded the space; one would not even notice the floral-figured
easy chair beneath it.
Mantle laughed softly.
“What’s so funny?” Pfeiffer asked, turning
around, then back to the painting. “I think this is a very good
piece of work, even though the subject matter is a bit depressing.”
“I know the work is very good,” Mantle said,
walking across the room, taking the advantage. “That wasn’t what I
was laughing at.”
“Well . . . ?”
“I was laughing at you, old friend.” Pfeiffer
scowled, as expected. “I painted this for you some time ago,” Mantle
continued. “You can take it back with you, if you like.”
“Well, thank you, but I don’t know.” Pfeiffer’s
voice lowered in register. “Why did you laugh?”
“Because I painted it for you and, predictably,
you took the bait. You nosed over to the Dead Bird without a
hesitation.”
“So what?”
“I’ll show you,” Mantle said. He stood before
the painting; it was at eye level. “Look at the sky. There, where
the dark, fist-shaped cloud meets the lighter one, what do you see?”
“I see two clouds. What should I see?”
“Step back a bit, and don’t stare into the
painting as if to burn a hole in it,” Mantle said. “You see the
black cloud as the figure and the white as the ground because there
is so much more white area. That’s a decoy. Try looking at the white
area as figure and the dark as ground. Now what do you see? Don’t
strain to look: it will come into focus.”
“I see letters, I think,” Pfeiffer said.
“And what do they spell?”
Pfeiffer shook his head; it was more like a
twitch. “T-O-D. Tod. Why, that’s the German word for death. Is that
really in there?”
“Yes,” Mantle said. “It’s part of a mosaic
using tod and tot. If you look closely, you can also make out the
words death and variants such as deth, over there.” Mantle pointed
to a shaded area in the sky.
“Why did you do that?” Pfeiffer asked.
“They’re subliminal embeds. Surely you’re
familiar with them—”
“Of course I am,” Pfeiffer replied, his voice a
bit loud. “But why use death, or tod, or whatever—other than to be
morbid.”
“They’re subliminal triggers. Your greatest
fear was death, remember? You used to talk about it all the time.”
Mantle waited a beat, “Step back a bit and look into the
forest—there, in the left corner where the crawlers are. What do
you see?”
“Nothing.”
“Look away from the painting,” Mantle said.
“Now look again.”
“Why it’s Caroline’s face, I can see it. It’s a
real trompe l’oeil.” Pfeiffer’s face seemed to darken. “What else
have you hidden in there?”
“That you’ll have to discover yourself,” Mantle
said. He couldn’t tell Pfeiffer that the subliminal portrait of his
wife was surrounded by genitals. Sweet, sexless, self-contained
Caroline, radiant in a wreath of cocks.
“Then there are more subembeds?”
“Quite a bit more,” Mantle replied, feeling
relieved yet guilty. He was acting like a vengeful child. The past
was dead, let it be, he thought.
“Do you really expect me to take that
painting?”
“That’s up to you.” Mantle walked into the
sitting room where he kept a small bar, and Pfeiffer followed. This
room contained another desk, this one walnut with a drop front,
several austere high-backed chairs, a discolored gilt frame mirror,
and a blond Kirman carpet, which brightened the room considerably.
This room had one small slat window; bookcases covered the walls.
Mantle stepped behind the bar. “Fix you a drink?”
“You did that to hurt me, didn’t you,” Pfeiffer
said—more a statement than a question. Pfeiffer the innocent,
Mantle thought, and in a way it was true. Pfeiffer the paradox.
“Yes, I suppose I did. Old wounds heal slowly
and all that. I’m sorry.”
“Well, let’s try to forget it,” Pfeiffer said.
“It was a long time ago that we had our trouble, wasn’t it, although
even now I’m not sure what happened, what was going on in your
mind.”
You sonofabitch, Mantle thought. You were
feeding on me, that’s what was going on in my mind. Don’t take the
bait, he told himself. Don’t let him manipulate you into
confession. It’s the old trap. But the net that Pfeiffer dragged
could still catch him. “Bourbon?”
Pfeiffer nodded, and Mantle poured him a shot.
“Are all the other paintings like the Dead Bird?” Pfeiffer asked.
“They all contain subliminals, if that’s what
you mean,” Mantle said, coming around from behind the bar. Shock the
little fisherman and maybe he won’t leave his bags, Mantle told
himself. I don’t need a guest tonight.
“And not all the triggers are visual,” he
continued. “There are some audio and olfactory sublims. I’ve even
got several inductors hooked up; they’re like very subtle
tachistoscopes.”
“You’re perverse,” Pfeiffer said, but he craned
his neck and looked into the other room. “Why are you painting that
crap, you’re a fine artist.”
“I’m an illustrator, remember? A subliminal
technician.” He thought it a confession rather than a statement of
fact. “And why should subliminals affect the quality of art?
Rembrandt used embeds in the seventeenth century. Did that make him
a lesser painter?”
“Well, it won’t make you a better one.”
Mantle laughed, and Pfeiffer said, “Don’t beg
the question. Why are you painting that stuff and keeping it in your
house?”
“What does it matter?” Mantle asked. “You don’t
think they have any effect, anyway.”
“I never said that, and you know it. I just
don’t think they have much effect. For the most part, we still
choose products on the basis of quality, and like it or not, the
same basic values remain. But I think you’re crazy to expose
yourself to subliminals like this.”
“You once told me that you don’t believe in the
unconscious, either,” Mantle said. “So these subs should have no
effect on you.”
Pfeiffer blushed, and Mantle found himself
facing him. Too close, he could smell Pfeiffer’s sour breath, see
the faint chicken-lines in his soft face. And suddenly Mantle
thought of Josiane. A flicker of memory, a flash: Josiane lost in a
crowd, screaming. A complex of risors reflecting distant sunlight.
Brooklyn swathed in grayness. But there was no emotional component;
he had simply watched a few frames of a film that played in his
mind.
Breaking away from Pfeiffer, he began to talk,
hoping to jar his memory again. He was talking to himself; Pfeiffer
was only a catalyst. “After Josiane was lost, I searched
everywhere, did everything possible to find her. But she might as
well have been swallowed up. I couldn’t stand the thought that she
might be dead, or that she might be only a mile away and I would
never find her. It was all too close to me; that’s one of the
reasons I left the States.”
“What were the other reasons?”
“One of my European sources found a woman who
fit her description.”
“Surely it was a hoax,” Pfeiffer said.
Mantle nodded. “But I stayed on anyway. I
couldn’t face going back home. That was two years ago.”
“Then you’ve given up.” Pfeiffer stood in the
doorway between the sitting room and living room and gazed at the
painting of the dead bird.
“No, I never gave up.” Mantle sat down in one
of the uncomfortable high-backed chairs and watched Pfeiffer. Then
he said, “I began painting privately as therapy. But I couldn’t live
with the paintings. I kept seeing things in them that weren’t
there.”
“Like what?” Pfeiffer asked.
“I saw demonic faces, strange beasts, my own
face, and people I knew,” Mantle continued. “So I began turning my
hallucinations into subembeds. Once I painted them into pictures,
they no longer threatened me. And I supposed that, by painting my
fears and visions, I could trick my memory.”
“Did that work?”
“Not really,” Mantle said. “I found bits and
pieces, but not enough to make a difference.” He regretted telling
Pfeiffer anything. But Pfeiffer’s presence had joggled his memory.
For an instant, Mantle had seen Josiane; that was important, not
what Pfeiffer thought. “I threw out a whole batch of those early
paintings. I didn’t even gesso them over; they could have been used
again. But I had this crazy fear that somehow I would be able to see
right through the gesso to the original painting. I couldn’t live
with them.
“I continued to paint in my spare time—I’m here
on loan to Eurofax as a consultant, as you probably know. They kept
me busy. Anyway, I traveled inland and all over the coast, but soon
I wasn’t painting for myself anymore. I began to pick up a lot of
commission work. And, of course, I experimented with new kinds and
combinations of subliminals, but I didn’t use nearly as many as in
the paintings you see around you.” After a pause, Mantle said, “And
I see you’re still looking.”
Pfeiffer turned away from the paintings. “Then
for whom did you paint these?” he asked, making a gesture toward the
living room.
“I started making paintings for every woman I
slept with,” Mantle said. “It became a kind of game. My work didn’t
frighten me as much as it had before—”
“What about the work you do for Eurofax?”
Pfeiffer asked.
“What about it?”
“Didn’t all that subliminal stuff upset you?”
Mantle chuckled. “I experimented with subs as a
way of working out my problems, and most of the work I did
translated easily into fax and other media. Made quite an impact,
actually. On the whole industry. But translating my ideas for fax
was a technical, not an emotional, problem. I’m old-fashioned: my
inspiration still comes from brush, canvas, and the old masters.”
Don’t look so smug, Mantle thought. We both
sold out.
“You were saying that your work didn’t frighten
you,” Pfeiffer said.
“Oh, yes, not as much as it had before. So I
began trying to trick my memory again by painting the past.”
“But these are all landscapes. . . .”
“The real paintings are hidden under those you
see,” Mantle said. “They’re models of my memory, sort of. There—” He
stepped past Pfeiffer into the living room and pointed at a large
painting in a simple metal frame. “That looks like the Cours
Mirabeau—see the fountains and the plane trees and smoky sky? But
the real picture is hidden in all that prettiness. Look at it long
enough and you’ll see a Slung City, then the fountains and trees
will disappear. And finally, if I’ve done it correctly, they will
both register. Memory works like that. You’re gazing at the ocean
and suddenly you’re seeing a city where you once lived or a woman
you’ve known.”
“They’re portraits of your past,” Pfeiffer
said, looking relieved.
“As an exercise,” Mantle continued, “I painted
some ‘portraits’ for friends, such as yourself. Some of the people I
never expect to see; in fact, some are dead, or probably dead.”
“Then why did you bother?”
“Anything might help me remember,” Mantle said.
“Even seeing you. If only I could remember, no matter how bad it
might be, then maybe I could rest.”
“But you know what happened to Josiane. She got
caught up in the Scream. She’s either dead or a Screamer. Same
difference.”
“And you are still a sonofabitch.”
Pfeiffer looked taken aback, but Mantle
recognized it as an affectation. “Jesus Christ,” Pfeiffer said. “It
has to be faced.”
“I know it happened, but I don’t know how it
happened, or exactly what happened. I don’t remember. I can’t see
it. . . .” For an instant, Mantle thought that Pfeiffer was
gloating. Yes, he had seen that. Well, he had confessed, lapsed back
into old patterns. It’s my own fault, he told himself. But how
Pfeiffer must have wanted that confession.
“You can’t even remember the Scream?” Pfeiffer
asked. “You were there.”
“I don’t remember any of it. What I know is
what I’ve been told, but it didn’t happen to me. I can’t even
remember Josiane.” She’s a holo on my desk, you sonofabitch, help
me.
“It’s the spider and the fly,” Pfeiffer said,
changing the subject as if he had heard enough.
“What?” Mantle asked.
“Sympathetic magic. It’s as if you thought that
you could bring us out of your past with a paintbrush.”
“Perhaps I should have washed my brushes,”
Mantle said, collecting himself.
“So you really did want me to come. . . .”
Mantle walked around the living room, as if to
gain comfort from his paintings, then sat down on the divan. He had
to get Pfeiffer out of here. Pfeiffer sat down beside him. “There’s
a painting for Caroline, too.”
“Which one is it?” Pfeiffer asked, looking
genuinely surprised.
“Aha, that you’ll have to figure out by
yourself.”
“Tell me,” Pfeiffer said, a hint of anxiety in
his voice. But Mantle shook his head.
“How is Caroline?” Mantle asked. “Is she still
taking those crazy rejuvenation treatments?”
“I haven’t seen Caroline for five months,”
Pfeiffer said, his face turned away from Mantle. “We decided that a
short separation was in order, what with my work and—”
“You mean she left you.”
So Caroline finally got up the nerve to cut
herself loose from him, Mantle thought, remembering. Caroline had
been trying to leave Carl since she was nineteen, but Carl needed to
care for his fragile flower, his little solipsist, as he called her,
lest she turn inward again and lose touch with the world—the real
world of Pfeiffer’s books and Pfeiffer’s career and Pfeiffer’s
dreams: Pfeiffer, the maddened sleepwalker, the man with no
unconscious. Hadn’t he started her on her career as a novelist,
didn’t he correct and criticize all her work, didn’t he rewrite her
stories, didn’t he provide the main income and fame?—Never mind that
Caroline had the critical reputation, that her books were all in
covers, and that without any self-promotion. But Carl promoted her
work, made sure it reached the proper people.
“She didn’t exactly leave me,” Pfeiffer said,
moving closer to Mantle on the divan. Uncomfortable, Mantle edged
away. He felt that Pfeiffer was already suffocating him. Ironically,
Pfeiffer had always kept a physical distance from Mantle, who
needed less psychological space. Once, before they became involved
with each other, they circled an entire room at a press club
cocktail party, Mantle stepping forward to talk face-to-face,
Pfeiffer stepping back, fumbling for an inhalor, excusing himself to
check on Caroline and to freshen his drink.
“I can’t imagine you two apart,” Mantle said,
excited and elated over Pfeiffer’s misfortune. As the old guilt rose
again, he tried to press it down like a cork on an opened wine
bottle. “You’ll just have to be strong.”
“Oh, no, it’s not like that,” Pfeiffer said,
defensive. “Separation was the natural thing. Our careers were
moving in different directions; we began to have different
interests.”
“Of course,” Mantle said, becoming fidgety,
trying to think up excuses to dissuade Pfeiffer from staying. He
sensed that a trap was about to close.
“But that’s all in the past,” Pfeiffer said,
“and I’m using this time to acclimate myself to my new life.”
“That’s very good,” Mantle said hollowly. “I’m
sorry to have to cut this so short, Carl, but I have an engagement
tonight and . . .”
“Jesus, I haven’t seen you in five years. Is
that all you can say?”
“Well, I’m sorry, Carl.” Take a goddamn hint!
He forced himself to look directly at Pfeiffer who, then, lowered
his eyes.
“Would you mind if I stayed here with you for a
few days?” Pfeiffer asked.
Horrified, Mantle heard himself say, “No.”
Three
When Mantle finally received a call from Pretre,
he was lying on his bed and watching Josiane move about his locked
bedroom as she dressed. She kept turning toward him, gesticulating
and speaking silently. Mantle had turned off the audio. He knew all
the words: he had run this holographic sequence a thousand times.
He had this room redone as a duplicate of their
old bedroom in New York. It was to Josiane’s taste: an odd mixture
of antiques and modern rounded architecture. There was almost
something Oriental about the room, Mandarin. On the walls were
mirrors, fanlights, and a glazed and coved cabinet. The bed was
beside a computer console built unobtrusively into the ornamented
wall; above the console was a large, arched mirror. The slightly
domed ceiling was a mirrored mosaic from which hung a chandelier of
white crystal flowers. The rug, which Josiane seemed to glide over,
was deep red and blue with a floral design that matched the ceramic
tiles on the door and lower part of the walls.
It was a mausoleum, an untidy showcase of
Josiane’s oddments that Mantle had collected: diaries (both his and
Josiane’s), holos, old fische and photographs, old fax clippings,
annotated calendars; even clothes, jewelry, and toiletries were
strewn about the room as if Josiane had just left in a hurry. And
hidden in drawers and pockets were letters, notes, and various
papers; they were the keys to his memory, which he could not bring
himself to trust to the computer Net.
Mantle disappeared Josiane when the telie
buzzed.
The holographic image of a neatly dressed man
appeared, as if seated naturally, in the center of the bedroom.
“Ah, Monsieur Mantle,” Pretre said,
mispronouncing the name. “Again I see you have not turned on your
visual. If we are ever to meet, how will I be able to recognize
you?” Pretre was dressed in brown with a white shirt buttoned to the
neck; he looked, as he always did, uncomfortable.
“I’m not dressed,” Mantle lied, “and everything
is such a mess.” He made an arc with his arm, as if Pretre could
see. But Mantle wouldn’t let anyone see or come inside this room.
“I’m sure you’ll recognize me when the time comes,” Mantle said
sarcastically. “Now tell me what you have.”
“You realize that when I called earlier, I made
you no promises.”
“Yes, yes,” Mantle said. “Now, is there going
to be a plug-in service or not?”
“A deal has been made with the church to let
you participate,” Pretre said.
“A deal?”
“As I explained to them, you are a man of honor
and truly interested in conversion. However, if you have second
thoughts . . .” Pretre had the look of a zealot; to Mantle it seemed
that all religious fanatics were incongruous-looking, too neatly
dressed, hair too sharply trimmed, shoes too polished. They all
looked uncomfortable, as if clothes and body were coffins for the
soul.
“What do you want in return?” Mantle asked.
“As I said, if you have second thoughts. I
really think we must conclude this—”
“Where shall we meet, then, and when?” Mantle
asked.
“Of course, when we meet is contingent upon the
demise of the one who is offering himself to the church,” Pretre
said, bowing his head slightly; oddly, the pious gesture did not
seem pompous. “But, as is mostly the case, le Crier will die at the
appointed time.”
“Which is . . . ?”
“Why don’t you take a walk to the Quai Saint
Pierre tonight at about eight o’clock,” Pretre said. “It is still
Festival, and very beautiful at night. Now, if you will turn on the
visual for an instant so I will be able to recognize you—”
“I’m sure my holo is in your file,” Mantle
said, about to switch off the phone.
“Ah, but that is not fair, nor is it the way we
do things. Now, I have been patient with you; it is your turn to do
me the courtesy of proper introduction.”
“All right,” Mantle said, making an adjustment
on the computer console so that only a sliver of the room could be
seen. Then he struck the visual key much too hard and leaned
forward.
Pretre smiled uncharacteristically and said,
“Very pretty.” Then the image disappeared, leaving the smoke
flower, the symbol of the church, which dissipated into the room.
It had begun to drizzle. Thunder rumbled in the
north; within an hour the wind would rise and the mists would be
broken by pelting rain. But that would not dissuade anyone from
going to Festival; the locals would splash about and let the rain
dissolve their traditional paper clothes. Everyone else would be
carrying rain repellors.
Pfeiffer had insisted on coming along with
Mantle, at least as far as the quay; he had to pick up the rest of
his bags at the old Carleton Hotel, anyway, and he was at loose
ends. It was difficult to imagine Pfeiffer without his self-imposed
regimen of writing and napping and watching the tube; in the old
days Pfeiffer would work all night and never go out. Mantle had
never gotten used to the constant clatterclack of Carl’s and
Caroline’s old-fashioned typewriters; in more paranoic moments, he
had entertained the idea that they were trying to make him insecure
because he wasn’t working.
And now the little fisherman has nothing to do,
Mantle thought. Then he was seized with the aching loneliness that
he associated with Josiane. As always, he could almost remember
her; but even in those few childhood memories of Josiane that were
left to him, she was out of focus.
They walked south toward the boulevard and the
quay. The street was becoming crowded, and the sky was alight with
color. The boom-boom of distant fireworks could be heard as the
locals kept their holiday in the old fashion. Curfews had been
temporarily lifted, and there were children laughing in the streets.
Indeed, it was like the old days before the Scream.
“Where are you going tonight?” Mantle asked,
regretting the question even as he asked it. He was making small
talk because he was nervous about meeting Pretre, who could lead him
to Josiane. He would find her, even if it meant passing through the
dead.
“More to the point,” Pfeiffer said, “where are
you going?”
“I was invited to a plug-in ceremony.”
“Christ, you are morbid as ever. Going to a
funeral service on Saturday night. Anyone I might know?” There was a
touch of humor in Pfeiffer’s voice. “Who is it, then?” he asked more
seriously, but he didn’t wait for an answer. “I think the plug-in
ceremony is disgusting. It violates the dead.”
Mantle chuckled, albeit nervously; if he
weren’t on his way to meet some unknown, dead Screamer (and if he
weren’t haunted by Josiane), he might enjoy the cool dampness of the
evening and Pfeiffer’s prissiness. It was raining hard now; a full
moon could be seen as a bright smear in the mist above. But the rain
didn’t reach Mantle and Pfeiffer, who had activated their rain
repellors and were walking along briskly, creating a wake like a
ship at sea. “They’re not really dead,” Mantle said. “After all,
psyconductors can’t work unless there is some brain activity. So the
person you’re plugging into must be alive, at least clinically.”
“But dead in the real sense,” Pfeiffer said.
“It’s no different than using a psyconductor in
court or family counseling or, for that matter, for pleasure,”
Mantle said. “One can’t get any closer than by touching another’s
mind. Brain activity is life itself.”
“You sound like the man who directed my
mother’s funeral,” Pfeiffer said. Mantle laughed; Pfeiffer had
actually developed a sense of humor in the intervening years. Then
Pfeiffer was serious again. “It’s the same as necrophilia, this
plugging-in with the dead. And plug-in necrophilia is actually
becoming common at funerals.”
“But you plugged into your mother when she
died, didn’t you?” Mantle asked, baiting him.
Pfeiffer blushed. “She insisted. When she first
became ill, she begged me, and I promised.”
“And was it so terrible?”
“I found it revolting, it makes my skin crawl
to remember it.” Pfeiffer quickened his pace, as if he could leave
the memory behind. Mantle began to feel more anxious about meeting
Pretre and entering the mind of a dead Screamer. Hooking into a
Screamer, or anyone who was mentally unbalanced, could be
disastrous, especially if one was prone to schizophrenia. The
bicameral Screamers, just like our ancestors who heard the voices
of the gods they worshiped, carried the voices and visions of their
community in the right lobes of their brains. But to know one
Screamer’s thoughts was also to know, at least potentially, the
thoughts and memories of every other, even those who had passed into
the black and silver regions of death.
And one of those voices might be Josiane’s.
When they reached the quay, it had stopped
raining. The streets were comfortably filled with locals and
visitors alike, everyone dressed in costume. A parade made its way
down the boulevard like a great, colorful, segmented bug.
Lightsticks burned in rainbow colors, held by all manner of demons
and beasts and angels and religious figures. Children were up late
and cavorting with the spirits, playing jump-the-cross and begging
for the indestructible American money. Looking across the port,
Mantle could see the festival floats covered with mimosa, roses,
carnations, violets, narcissus, and hyacinth. The wetness seemed to
make everything pellucid, preternaturally bright; Mantle was
reminded of Mardi Gras in New Orleans. Indeed, Shrove Tuesday was
not far away.
“You’d best get to the hotel for your bags,”
Mantle said to Pfeiffer as he looked around for Pretre, wondering if
he would come at all.
“There’s plenty of time for that,” Pfeiffer
said; he seemed to be enjoying the noisy Festival atmosphere. “Come
on, let’s take some wine before your rendezvous.” Another touch of
sarcasm there.
Mantle thought he glimpsed Pretre, who
disappeared behind some people. “I’ll see you later, then, at the
house.”
“Come on,” Pfeiffer said earnestly, “we’ll all
have a drink together or, perhaps, something to eat. It is time.”
For all his bluster and show of independence, Pfeiffer did not do
well alone except when he was writing—and even then he preferred to
have people around so he could read his work aloud. “Perhaps I can
join you. I can wait for you during the service, and then you can
show me the town.” He smiled. “I haven’t had a woman in some time,
you know.”
Pfeiffer’s false show of intimacy embarrassed
Mantle. Again Mantle felt trapped, as if Pfeiffer really did have
hooks into him. “Dammit, Carl, hasn’t it occurred to you that I
might not feel like seeing the town tonight? Or not feel like seeing
you? I have something to do, give me some room.”
Pfeiffer, ever the immovable object, said, “The
funeral is only going to depress you. Going out will make you feel
better.”
“Fuck off,” Mantle said wearily. “You haven’t
changed at all, have you? You still can’t understand no.”
“All right, Raymond, I’m sorry. But you can at
least tell me what kind of ceremony it is that you can’t take me.”
“The ceremony is for a Screamer,” Mantle said,
watching for Pretre. “Now would you still like to come along?” he
asked, turning to Pfeiffer. “Perhaps you could plug-in and meet your
mother.”
“I said I was sorry, Raymond.” How Mantle hated
the way Pfeiffer still used his full Christian name, as if Pfeiffer
were a professor addressing a callow, pimply faced student. “You
don’t have to reach to try to hurt me, especially with my mother.
You were close to her once upon a time, remember?” Pfeiffer stood
his ground, his presence suffocating Mantle more than the people
around him. It was then that Mantle became aware that the Festival
gathering was becoming dense, turning into a crowd which might
become dangerous.
Mantle caught sight of Pretre and saw that Joan
was with him. “Damn,” he said under his breath, forgetting about
Pfeiffer, who was saying something to him. What’s she doing here?
Does she think she’s going along? Joan had introduced Pretre to
Mantle as a favor—she had interviewed him once, she said; but never,
never had she spoken of having ever been to a ceremony. He felt
conflicting emotions. Seeing her again, especially now, excited him.
He loved her more than he admitted, felt protective toward her, and
didn’t want her around as there might he trouble. But more than
that, he didn’t want to share Josiane with her. For a split second,
though, he considered giving up the whole venture. He could have his
own life with Joan; after all, the past was already buried.
Mantle waved at Joan and Pretre, who
acknowledged by waving back. They made their way toward him through
the crowd.
Could she have been a member of that fucking
church all along? Mantle asked himself. Anger and anxiety began to
boil inside him. Pfeiffer took his arm to get his attention, “You
don’t want to get involved with that sort of thing. What’s the
matter with you?” Pfeiffer asked—a bit too loudly, for an American
couple nearby were staring at him. “Plugging into a Screamer is
illegal and dangerous, and the fate of the Christian Criers is in
litigation.”
“You can’t litigate faith,” Mantle said, and
then he turned to greet Joan and Pretre.
“Hello, darling,” Joan said to Mantle. She
appeared to be out of breath, but Mantle knew that as a sure sign of
her nervousness. “I’m sorry we’re late . . . the usual problems.
Jesus, it’s more crowded than we expected.” She looked over at
Pfeiffer and said hello. Pretre glared at Pfeiffer, then turned his
gaze toward Mantle.
“Carl Pfeiffer, this is Joan Otur,” Mantle
mumbled. Ignoring Pfeiffer and Pretre, he asked Joan, “What the hell
are you doing here?”
“I thought to come with you,” she said, her
eyes averted. “The first time can be a bit unhinging.”
“Then you have done this before,” Mantle said,
feeling himself turning cold, and controlled, “And you never told
me. Why?”
“I kept losing my nerve. I was going to try to
tell you when you came back from Naples. I was going to try. . . .”
She composed herself and looked him directly in the eyes. “It seems
you have brought someone else, also,” she said, then turned to smile
at Pfeiffer, who looked a bit embarrassed and bewildered, as did
Pretre. But Pretre also looked anxious.
“Carl is not staying,” Mantle said.
“I think, perhaps, I’d better leave,” Pretre
said curtly. “Another time.”
“Oh, no, Francois,” Joan said, taking Pretre’s
arm. “Stay, please.” They made an odd couple: straight, stiff,
squarely cut, and uncomfortable Pretre; and Joan, who was tiny, with
short-cropped hair, pale, full face, and an air of casual Midwestern
sureness, if not sophistication. “Carl is a friend of Ray’s. It will
be all right, I pledge so.”
Pretre seemed to relax a bit. He looked coyly
at Mantle and said, “I do not know your Raymond, except for a
momentary glimpse.” It suddenly occurred to Mantle that, like Joan,
Pretre was a poseur: the mock motions of fluttering and business,
the ill-fitting, crinkle-neat uniform of the obedient convert were
all protective guises. He suddenly saw Pretre as a survivor of the
riots and burnings and camps.
“Joan, I want to speak with you for a moment,”
Mantle said, and he nodded to Pretre and left him standing awkwardly
before Pfeiffer.
“You should not have come here.”
“But I wanted to be with you, to share the
past, to help you find it,” she said, looking earnestly up at him.
“You’ll be different after you plug-into the Crier, and I want to be
there to begin with you anew.”
“You should have told me what you are. Liar.”
“You weren’t ready, and—can’t you see?—I’m
telling you now, just by being here, everything I’ve done—”
It was too late. “Does Pretre know why I want
to plug-into a Screamer?”
Joan shrugged, her only affectation, and said,
“Yes, I told him you are obsessed with the past; that—”
“It was a setup. From the beginning.”
“There was no other way to do it. And it was
what you wanted.” It was to Joan’s credit that she did not shrink
from Mantle’s stare. Poseur, he thought. User. Of course,
subliminal engineers were always in demand, and most churches were
evangelistic. Joan had done her homework. Well, he thought. It’s
fair. Mutual using.
“I don’t want you along,” Mantle said firmly.
“I do love you,” Joan said, and, irrationally,
Mantle believed her. But Joan was not Josiane. “We both have
conflicting loyalties,” she continued, “and secrets to be shared.
But don’t shut me out, not now, I came to help you, perhaps plug-in
and share—”
“You can help me by getting Pfeiffer out of my
hair.”
“I don’t think Pretre would permit that.” Her
voice lowered in register, becoming flat, cold. “He knows that
plugging in could be dangerous for you.”
“For me?” Mantle asked.
“Well,” she said, shrugging again, then looking
at him directly, defiantly, “you have admitted to right-brain
tendencies. . . . I’m sorry, Ray. Let’s stop this right now.
Please, I want to be with you. It’s no trick of the church.”
“Is there anything you haven’t told Pretre?”
“No,” she said, and accepting the inevitable,
turned to Pfeiffer. “Carl, would you like to accompany me to my club
for a drink while these two attend to their business?” Pretre gave
her a nasty look; unmindful, she took Pfeiffer’s arm. Pfeiffer, who
seemed interested in Joan, started to say something to Mantle, but
thought better of it and said, “All right, but I think we should
meet later.”
You won’t want to see me later, Mantle thought.
He nodded and told them he would join them at the club or her
apartment later if he could, although he had no intention of doing
so. They didn’t need him around to have sex. Mantle looked at Joan.
There was a momentary awkwardness, shared sadness and regret, and
then she and Pfeiffer left arm in arm, swallowed into the happy
crowd as the old-fashioned fireworks boomed and spiraled in the
windy air above.
Pretre silently led the way to the nearest
transpod station. As they walked, the fireworks died away and the
entire quay as far as La Castre became a huge videotecture. Lasers
recreated the interior of Amiens Cathedral, which had been destroyed
by terrorists; imaginary naves and chapels floated, as if in God’s
thoughts, above the Festival. People passed through the aisles and
holy walls of the holographic structure like angels moving to and
fro in heavenly reverie. The crowd was thick near the transpod
station, everyone howling and halooing. As if on cue, hawkers
appeared everywhere, selling their wares: holy inhalors with a
touch of the dust of Palestine, shards of the true cross, magical
silver amulets, and bone fragments of the true Christ. There was
even an old woman dressed in rags selling dates, halvah, and plastic
phylacteries.
It certainly was like the old days, Mantle
thought.
“Come on, hurry,” Pretre said, obviously
disgusted with the goings-on around him. A car was waiting inside
the small, glassite station, and a transpod rut descended into the
ground a few meters away. The transpod looked like a translucent
egg; it was computer controlled and driven by a propulsion system
built into the narrow rut.
Pretre punched in the coordinates, opaqued the
walls for privacy, and with a slight jar, they were off.
“Where is the ceremony taking place?” Mantle
asked after a few moments to break the awkward silence. Pretre
seemed to be lost in contemplation, as if he were deciding whether
to take Mantle to the funeral after all.
“Near Plage du Dramont,” Pretre said, “South of
here.”
A long pause, and then Mantle asked, “Has Joan
told you why I want to attend the ceremony?”
“Yes,” Pretre said matter-of-factly. “She told
me of your lost wife, Josiane. A terrible thing, but a common
problem these days.”
“If you know that, why are you taking me to the
ceremony?”
“So that you can see and believe that, but by
the grace of our Screamers, as you call them, we have not only found
a new faith, but another, higher form of consciousness,” Pretre
said.
“And if I remain an unbeliever?”
Pretre shrugged. “Then at least you will owe us
a favor. Perhaps you will regain your memory, perhaps not. Perhaps
this dying Crier can take you to your wife’s thoughts, perhaps not.
But I’m reasonably certain that you would not want to make public
what you see tonight, as we could certainly affect your position
with the newsfax. Given your previous record and your incarceration
after you left New York . . .”
Mantle held back his anger; it would not do to
spoil his chance at a plug-in now.
“We still have a bit of a ride,” Pretre said.
“If you like, I can give you a blow-job.” That was said in his
matter-of-fact voice, which was now without a trace of an accent.
“Why did you bring Joan?” Mantle asked,
ignoring Pretre’s polite suggestion.
“That was for your own safety. It was her
suggestion—she’s concerned for you. You know the chances of getting
lost in another’s mind, or you should. You might become a Crier
yourself.” Pretre smiled, enjoying the irony. “The presence of a
familiar, sympathetic mind could help you, should you lapse into
fugue. Now you take your chances. Whatever you might think of Joan
now, she does love you, and has for quite some time. Of that I can
assure you. I thought you treated her rather badly. Of course,
that’s none of my business. . . .”
“That’s right,” Mantle said. “It isn’t.” But
Pretre was right: Mantle had treated her badly. He had always
treated her badly. And now he was afraid of being alone. Suddenly,
everything seemed hard, metallic, hollow. Mantle remembered his
first experience with enlightenment drugs; how the trip reversed and
he scammed down into the stinking bowels of his mind, through the
hard tunnels of thought where everything was dead and leaden.
He might become lost inside the Screamer and
still not find Josiane. At the thought, his insides seemed to open
up, his heart began to pound, and he had a sudden rush of
claustrophobia. Where was Joan to protect him . . . ?
“If you don’t mind, I’m going to transparent
the walls,” he told Pretre as he pressed the appropriate stud.
“Are you all right?” Pretre asked.
“A touch of motion sickness, that’s all.”
They were above-ground now, near the city’s
edge. In a cold sweat, Mantle watched the tiers of fenestrated
glasstex whiz past, studded with sunlights. The city blazed like
noon under a night sky. A few moments later, they were rushing
through darkness again, along the coast, through the ribbon of
country. City lights were a mushroom glow behind them, stars blinked
wanly overhead. Mantle’s claustrophobia was replaced by vertigo.
“Some of the Esterel is still untouched by the
cities,” Pretre said, staring eastward in the direction of the
ocean. “This used to be a beautiful country, full of flowers and
grass and cathedrals.”
Mantle smiled (did Pretre think cathedrals grew
out of the ground like orange trees?), and then remembered his own
country, remembered Binghamton and its hilly surrounds. As a boy, he
had vision-quested for four days and three nights atop a hill near
his home. How different that had been from his experience with
enlightenment drugs. But that was a lifetime ago, before new Route
17 and the furious urbanization around the mechanized highway. That
old vision-quest hill had been leveled as if it had never been. But
the movement of the transpod calmed him, and Mantle fancied that he
was a passenger on an old railroad train—he was riding the ancient
Phoebe Snow, and he was heading into Binghamton.
Just then Pretre unnerved him by asking, “Your
original home is Binghamton, isn’t it?”
“Yes,” Mantle replied, wondering for an instant
if Pretre had read his mind. Coincidence, and his thoughts turned to
Joan. She had told Pretre everything, he knew that. She was probably
sitting down at a table with Pfeiffer at her club right now. He
imagined that Pfeiffer would be holding forth about poor Raymond,
what a waste, and Joan would listen intently and nod her head.
Later, she would take him home to bed.
Until now, Mantle hadn’t been possessive with
Joan; he had not had those feelings since Josiane. Joan had always
had other relationships, and Mantle even encouraged them.
It was Pfeiffer. He could not imagine her
wanting to have Pfeiffer. The fat fucking fisherman! But that was
another deception, and Mantle new it. He was simply afraid of losing
her. It was the old, old anxiety surfacing.
Well, fuck her, he thought. She was loving me
for the church. I must have sensed it, he told himself. Maybe that’s
why we made love so rarely. He felt himself getting an erection. Now
he wanted her when it was too late.
“You look nervous, my friend,” Pretre said.
“Would you like a tranquilizer? It will calm you, but not affect
your thinking. And it will wear off by the time we reach the beach.”
Pretre was staring at him intently, which did make Mantle nervous.
“No, thank you,” Mantle said as he looked at
the dark shapes and shadows whisking past like specters in a dream
of falling. “I don’t take any drugs if I can help it.”
“Ah, since your incarceration, perhaps?”
“It has nothing to do with that.” You faggot
sonofabitch, Mantle thought. He still had an erection.
Pretre took another tack. His voice became
louder, more hollow-sounding and the accent returned. “Binghamton
was blessed with Criers, wasn’t it? Consumed, as it were, by the
Singing Crowds.”
Mantle grimaced as he remembered returning to
his old neighborhood, which had been ravaged by the Screamer mobs.
They had killed his mother in her bed. Yes, he thought, again
feeling a rush of anxiety and guilt, Binghamton was certainly
blessed.
“But that should not have happened,” Pretre
continued, “because according to your theorists, the population
density was nowhere near Beshefe’s limit. Beshefe was his name, I
think.” The sarcasm in his voice was as thick as his accent.
“People become Screamers as a reaction to
stress,” Mantle said. “There are many ways to measure social
stress, all approximations. Beshefe was a social scientist, not a
physicist.”
“Do you also believe our Criers are just
schizophrenics?” Pretre asked. “Joan once believed that.” He smiled,
obviously toying with Mantle, who was in no mood for it.
It will soon be over, he told himself, while
his thoughts darted from the past to present, back and forth, like
fireflies in the darkness of his memory.
He remembered his first newsfax assignment in
Washington, although it was hard to imagine that there were mobs
and riots before the Screamers. He had worn a riot-cowl and had
packed a small stun weapon that was little more than a toy. He had
been so afraid that he’d kept saying “Jesus Christ” into his
recorder. He could remember it as clearly as if he were still
standing there in burning College Park, choking on the stink of
explosives and burned flesh, listening to people scream. Like
horses, they had tried to bolt, but everyone was trapped in the
crowd. He remembered Dodds, who had been standing beside him and
shouting into his recorder until half his face was blown away; and
how for one eternal heartbeat they had stared at each other before
Dodds fell and died. In that last moment, Mantle had felt nothing
but surprise. But deep inside was one thought: that it would soon be
over. One way or another.
I’ll find Josiane, he told himself, confirming
it.
“Well?” Pretre asked. “What do you think?”
“Schizophrenia is a reaction to stress,” Mantle
said. “But it’s also a function of an individual’s biochemistry and
early environment. The Screamers are somewhat different, obviously.”
“Ah, somewhat different,” Pretre said. “Now
tell me how they are different.”
“Jesus Christ,” Mantle said. “They’re
bicameral, they hallucinate instead of think, they’re telepathic.
You must know what I think about Screamers. Certainly Joan has told
you. She’s told you everything else.”
“She doesn’t know everything about you.”
Mantle held back his anger; only his balled
fist betrayed him. Was Pretre a Screamer? he asked himself. If not
partially bicameral, he was certainly schizo—
“You probably think I’m mad, don’t you?” Pretre
asked as he stared vacantly ahead, his head cocked as if he were
trying to hear something distant.
Mantle felt a chill. More than schizophrenic,
he thought.
“No,” he continued, “I’m just a bit deaf, as
are all of us who belong to the Church of the Christian Criers.”
Pretre paused as if waiting for a cue from Mantle.
“Go on,” Mantle said. He was nervous, as he
always was in the presence of those who had slippery minds.
“When we’re together in a ceremony, when we
hook-into a holy Crier, then—for that precious short time—we can
hear the voices of the other world which has been silent so long. We
can hear the voice of any Crier who wishes to communicate, even if
that Crier be dead.”
Josiane! Mantle thought, almost saying her name
aloud. For an instant, he thought he actually could see her face
before him. It was such a beautiful face: strong yet delicate,
framed in a halo of baby-fine, curly hair. I love you, my sister,
please let me find you. . . .
He thought of Joan: such was his perversity.
But her pleading face could not draw him back.
“Sometimes I can hear the whispering of the
other world when I’m alone,” Pretre said. “Sometimes I hear the
departed Criers.” He jabbed Mantle lightly in the crotch and,
feeling an erection, let his hand linger. “And I suspect that you
will hear a voice or two yourself.”
Four
Joan took Pfeiffer to her club, which was
within walking distance on the Rue de Latour-Maubourg, which angled
off from the Boulevard de la Croisette. The club was a seedy bar
called The Exchange, and was Irish. It was not a tourist spot as was
Hell’s Knell, with its sawdust floor and jazz bands, but just a hole
in the wall where one could get a stiff drink and an American
hamburger.
“I’ve heard of this place,” Pfeiffer said,
sliding into a booth as Joan took the opposite side.
“Is it what you expected?”
“I would imagine that its reputation is mostly
a fake,” he replied, looking toward the burly barkeep who was Irish,
and then around at the booths and tables, not yet filled.
Joan smiled. Ray was right, she thought.
Pfeiffer’s lack of humor and subtlety was somehow endearing. For
him, everything carried the same weight and deserved the same
consideration. “Well,” she said, “there was an incident once that
made it a tourist attraction for a while. But now it’s mostly fax
people, bureaucrats, and an occasional diplomat.”
“I’m worried about Raymond,” Pfeiffer said,
looking at her as if he needed to know everything about Mantle now,
even before tasting a drink. As if on cue, the barkeep appeared to
welcome Joan, make some small talk, and take their order—bourbon
with a chaser for him, a Campari for her; then he left, thereby
giving Joan a chance to recover from Pfeiffer’s question. He was
fishing: the least he could do was wait until she’d had a drink.
“I’m sure Ray will be fine,” she said coolly,
but she was anxious about him and wondered if he had plugged in yet.
It’s my own fault I’m not with him, she told herself. But he would
be fine, she thought, only half believing it. In some ways Mantle
was one of the strongest people she had ever met, and yet he was
also one of the most insecure. He was open about it, accepted it,
and guiltlessly used her to shore himself up from time to time. All
those hours spent listening to him talk incessantly about his
painting and subliminals and his fear of failure. He constantly
compared himself to his peers, especially to Pfeiffer and his wife.
There was something repellent about him when he was like that;
perhaps it was because Joan needed him to be strong.
“I think this business with the Screamers is
crazy,” Pfeiffer said, staring intently at Joan. “And I think this
cult of yours is even crazier.” He paused, waiting for a reaction;
receiving none, he said, “Raymond’s always been on the edge, even
before Josiane disappeared.”
There was something about the way Pfeiffer said
“Raymond” that Joan didn’t like, but she didn’t take the bait.
Although she agreed with him about Ray being on the edge (and,
perhaps because of that, also terribly sane), she made a
disbelieving face.
“It’s all in his medical records,” he said,
slumping down in his chair a bit, as if exposing Mantle’s little
secrets were a grave and difficult burden to bear. “He has definite
right-brain tendencies. And his corpus callosum is slightly thicker
than normal, which is the case with many schizophrenics and your
Screamers. The corpus callosum connects the two hemispheres in the
brain—”
“Jesus Christ,” she snapped. “What’s wrong with
using your whole brain?” She caught herself and said, evenly, “You
seem to’ve made quite a study of Ray. He must be very happy to have
a friend who is so concerned.”
“I am concerned,” Pfeiffer said earnestly,
seemingly missing her point, or possibly just ignoring her
derision. Perhaps Ray was right: Pfeiffer might be the grand
solipsist, wending his way around a world made for him, all the
mirrors of the world reflecting only his own face. And yet there was
something about him that reminded her of Ray.
“I’m afraid he will go over the edge if he
plugs-into a Screamer,” Pfeiffer continued.
“There’s always that chance,” she said evenly,
but she was feeling panic. Her relationship with Mantle had been a
series of small losses and loneliness leading up to tonight. It
could have been different tonight, she told herself. I should have
been with him. It’s my fault. I’ve lost him now, really lost him. .
. .
“But there’s no chance of him finding Josiane,”
Pfeiffer said with finality. “She’s probably dead or else she’s
running slack-jawed with a gang of Screamers somewhere in New York.
Either way, she’s beyond his reach.”
“Perhaps not,” Joan said, recovering.
“Bunk,” Pfeiffer said, waving for a drink.
There was a waiter on duty now, and a battered old Thring domestic
robot keeping the back station where Joan and Pfeiffer were sitting.
The club was becoming crowded.
“Do you want another drink?” Pfeiffer asked
Joan as the robot hesitated beside their booth. The robot, although
otherwise clean and burnished, had the flag of the old Irish
Republic sloppily painted on its chest. It had a jolly, stereotyped
Irish face on its video display; and it spoke in brogue. Although
the robot moved smoothly on hidden wheels, it had the rectangular
look of something that should rattle and squeak, like a
twentieth-century automobile.
Joan and Pfeiffer ordered another drink, and
the robot whispered off.
“Raymond won’t find anything inside the
Screamer but the last flickers of a dying mind,” Pfeiffer said. “Did
you know that Raymond had to be incarcerated in a sanatorium after
he plugged into his psychiatrist?”
“What?” Joan asked.
“Ah, that he didn’t tell you.”
“I did know that he was in a private sanatorium
for a time.”
“Well,” Pfeiffer continued, “it was an
experiment to regain his memory—the idea being that the psych could
gain access to whatever it was that Mantle was hiding from himself.”
“And . . . ?”
“Raymond plugged into the psych, and then went
over the edge when the psych started probing. Raymond must have had
quite a stake in hiding the information, for he almost killed the
psych before the connection was broken. And this doctor was supposed
to be experienced in using the psyconductor with patients. The irony
is that both of them ended up in the same sanatorium.”
“You really don’t like Ray, do you?” Joan
asked, angry at the way Pfeiffer had told her the story, and angry
at herself for being here, for not being with Mantle. And damn the
church and Pretre for taking him away, she thought.
“Of course, I like Raymond. Christ, I’ve known
him for twenty years.”
“You don’t seem to be much of a friend. You
talk about him as if he were a thing, not a person.”
“I’m sorry you misunderstand me. I know Raymond
better than anyone else. I’m speaking of the things about him that
worry me. Since I assumed you to be his friend too, I didn’t think
it necessary to review his good points, although I can do that if
you wish.” He gave her a wide, boyish grin, then bowed his head to
disappear it.
“Okay,” Joan said, “I’m sorry.”
“Forget it.”
You asshole, she thought. No wonder Ray hates
him. She wondered how Pfeiffer would be sexually. Probably not very
good, but then again. . . . He was probably not bisexual, probably
fucked-up sexually.
“Do you really believe that Raymond can find
Josiane by sticking into a Screamer?”
Another gibe, Joan thought, but she would play
a game and take everything seriously, ignore nuance. She could
excuse herself, get rid of him; but there was too much she wanted to
find out about Ray, and about his relationship with Pfeiffer and
Josiane.
“Yes,” she said matter-of-factly, “I believe
Ray has a chance of finding out about his wife.” Smiling, she said,
“And one doesn’t ‘stick-in,’ one plugs-in.”
Pfeiffer grinned, then his face became serious
again, as if the muscles could only hold a smile for an instant. “Is
that as bad as calling San Francisco ‘Frisco’?” he asked, but the
joke fell dead. “I don’t think Raymond will ever find Josiane, and I
think it’s cruel for you and your fanatical friends to endanger him
and give him false hopes.”
“There is a chance,” Joan said quietly, praying
she was right and that he wouldn’t be harmed. After her holy
initiation (she had also plugged into a dying Crier), her faith in
the church and its methods seemed unshakable. Now she was having
second thoughts. But I must believe, she told herself. “Many
nonbelievers become converts after plugging in and contacting a lost
relative. There are enough documented cases to convince—”
“And how many of your ‘cases’ went bonkers
afterward? You sound like a rabid spiritualist from the last
century.”
“One cannot trick someone with a psyconductor.”
“I’m not at all sure of that.”
“And least of all Ray. Tricking people into
believing things is his business.”
“He’s as vulnerable as anyone else,” Pfeiffer
said. “You should realize that. And as I understand it, the
procedure won’t work unless he’s in a suggestible state.”
“A trance can help you initially break with the
world, which you must do when you plug-into the dead, especially
into a Crier. But you can’t locate a lost friend or wife or relative
with a trick. Either the hook-in works or it doesn’t. The
psyconductor is a scientific instrument, and communicating with the
dead is a common and indisputable fact.” Joan caught herself, and
her face became warm with embarrassment: she was anxiously singing
the party song, and even to her, it sounded hollow and foolish. What
she had felt as true—and, yes, profound—now sounded silly when put
into words. She thought about Ray hooking into the Crier and
remembered her own plug-in ceremony, the sense of expansion and
uplift, of passing through the layers of the world and drifting
through the black and silver spaces; and all she could communicate
were a few trite phrases, true as they might be.
“He won’t find her,” Pfeiffer said. There was a
strident edge to his voice.
“How can you be so sure?”
“‘I really don’t think he wants to find her.”
“Then why would he go to all this trouble?”
“To deceive himself, to give himself something
to live for; maybe to forget his failings. He is, by his own
standards, a failure. Surely you can see that.”
“I see nothing of the sort,” Joan replied
angrily. “And don’t you think you’re being a bit too condescending?
People who live in glass houses, and all that sort of thing . . . ?”
Pfeiffer smiled, this time genuinely, or so it
seemed, for the smile passed slowly across his face. “Ah, so we
return to maxims of great moral truth. You English are so fond of
them.”
Joan blushed. “The maxim does contain some
truth. And I’m not English, I’m American, it’s just that I’ve
developed an accent from living abroad—”
“But for every maxim there’s a countermaxim,”
Pfeiffer said, ignoring her protest. “We aren’t so removed from the
medieval mind, after all.”
“What do you mean?” Joan asked, content to let
the conversation drift away from Ray for the moment. She would let
Pfeiffer puff himself up.
“The Middle Ages were ruled by maxims and
parables from history, legend, and Scripture. They contained all the
great moral truths of the age, and were used to defend every
action.”
“Did you know that Ray has an interest in
history?” Joan asked, feeling that she was on safe ground now.
“No, I didn’t. He never showed much of an
interest in the old days.”
“Yes, he’s fascinated by the twentieth
century.”
“Raymond always did have to have an escape.”
“What?”
“Nothing.”
“You really don’t have a single good word for
him, do you?” Joan asked.
“I’m sorry. It’s not the way you think.”
“Do you think yourself so much nobler and more
in touch with reality than he? Is your profession so much better?”
Now Pfeiffer began to redden, although whether
out of anger or humiliation, Joan could not tell. “I don’t think of
myself as noble, and I see the news medium as the filthy business it
is. When I met Raymond, he was unformed but brilliant. Anyone could
see that. I’ve watched him grow and develop and gain control over
his craft. And watched him fail on his own terms. He wanted to be an
artist, not an illustrator or, worse yet, a subliminal engineer.”
“Glass houses. . . .” Joan said.
“Well, I—”
Joan smiled, and Pfeiffer returned it. “Tell me
about Josiane,” she asked.
“What do you want to know?”
“Anything. I want to get a feel for what she
was like.” She watched Pfeiffer’s hands as she spoke. He had the
annoying habit of twiddling his thumbs, an American mannerism she
had forgotten existed; it looked somehow obscene.
“You know, of course, that they’re brother and
sister.”
“Yes.”
“Actually, they look quite alike,” Pfeiffer
said, untangling his fingers and taking a sip of his drink, which
was watered down by now. “You can’t see it in holos, even if you set
them side by side; only in the flesh. Perhaps it was because they
had a similar sort of intensity. Of course, they had some of the
same facial features. The same kind of bodies, I guess, too. Both
long and lanky. But they had very different turns of mind.”
“How do you mean?”
“Josiane was a scatter-head. Never finished
anything. Very young and immature, really. Always falling in and out
of love.”
“But that was before she settled down with
Ray.” She said that like a question.
“Josiane never settled down. It was just that
she and her brother shared a mutual romantic dream for a while.”
“It seemed to have worked.”
“For a while, and in its fashion, but there
were always problems.”
“As in any relationship,” she said, looking
into his eyes for a reaction. There was none.
“But Raymond was more stable,” Pfeiffer
continued. “Except in matters of the heart. Somehow he’d convinced
himself that he was in love with his sister.”
“She must have felt the same way.”
“She was talked into it,” Pfeiffer said. “But
he had the talent. She was always a nice middle-class wife type.”
“That’s a sexist thing to say.”
“But true, just the same. She was an
anachronism. But she was also an actress, always playing one or
another stereotyped role. Those I remember well. She and Raymond
always played games; that’s the way it seemed to me, anyway. At one
time or another Josiane had pretended to be every other lover he had
known, and played them quite well. Studied up on them, scanned their
records, but she never went so far as to have face changes. She was
quite an insecure woman.”
Joan listened, certain that the bare facts were
true; but Pfeiffer had none of the insides. Everything he said was
couched in bile, somehow distorted. Pfeiffer was truly a faxmaster,
as perverse as the crowds he tried to please.
“Most of that I know,” she said. “Ray told me,
but I wanted a different viewpoint, especially since you knew them
both for so long.”
“Josiane never really seemed to change,
although she was, as I said, always playing at it. Perhaps that was
what Raymond found interesting. At any rate, she was really quite
charming. She had a definite charisma.”
“So I understand,” Joan said, suddenly feeling
jealous of Josiane, desperately hoping that Ray wouldn’t find her.
“Did you think it unnatural for them to marry?”
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